I am really amazed at the way magic has been working in my life lately. First of all, on Wednesday morning, I did a short ritual in which I prayed for clarity of mind, thought, and emotion, for groundedness, and for a true connection with Spirit. (A connection with all 5 of the elements, in other words.) I concentrated on making healthy decisions in my life and keeping my cool in tense situations.

And I feel all of those things came to fruition. Even when I got extremely pissed off at work, I didn't blow up at anyone, I spoke calmly and clearly, and handled whatever came my way. I didn't get too overwhelmed working in the office Wednesday. And I made a clear and healthy decision for my life: to leave my job.

The next interesting thing that happened is that I have been talking about dragonflies lately, and noticing dragonfly stuff wherever I go. They seem to be everywhere. So, I looked up their meaning as totem animals, and got two similar meanings...

This site says:

"Dragonfly - It can tell you how to break through illusions and how to gain power through dreams. It teaches higher aspirations. Imagination"

And this site says:

"Dragonfly - Dream time - Illusion - Transformation
teaches us the art of illusion - is the gatekeeper to dream time - is the essence of change, wisdom, enlightenment, communication from the elemental world, is tied to water and earth. It teaches us that things are never quite what they seem - asks us what habits we need to change. It teaches us that we are the dream - not to get caught in illusion, trying to prove things, to walk within truth. Dragonfly asks us to look at the habits we need to change, guides us through the mists of illusion - is the gatekeeper to the pathway of transformation."

With so much dragonfly imagery in my life, including the beautiful dragonfly candle now sitting on my desk, I considered what all of this means to me personally. I believe that the dragonfly is a sign from the universe to pay attention to (and learn from) my dreams, to contemplate my reality -- what it is, what I want it to be, and to consider the things that might need changing in my life.

And I did decide to make a change. It's funny that I didn't know that was the meaning of dragonflies until after I made my decision. I'm telling you, sometimes you only understand how everything connects after the fact.

Another interesting thing: when I learned that dragonflies are associated with dreams, I decided to take another look at my crazy dream from the other night, and consider its significance.

Here's what I came up with:

~ In the first part of my dream, when I was making bad decisions:
Fear that I have been making bad decisions in my life. Moreso, I think it reflects a desire to follow my heart, and to follow my true instincts.

~ When I ended up at the end of the line and hadn't even noticed the other group:
I've just been "going through the motions" regarding work. I've been kind of moving along in life and continuing the same path, without much awareness or growth.

~ When the other people disappeared:
Everyone else gets frustrated and leaves situations when it's time to, except for me.

~ When I gave up trying to explain the situation to a stranger:
It's not necessary to explain myself, to explain why I'm leaving any situation I choose to. My life and my decisions are my own, and I owe no one an explanation.

~ Walking away to find another stand:
It is necessary for me to move on to new things in life, to make changes.

~ The floor tipping, and my clinging to the railing in fear:
I am clinging onto a situation, afraid to let go, afraid of giving up or being a quitter, afraid of failure, afraid of losing control. Or, at the very least -- feeling insecure in my current situation.

Fascinating stuff, really. Dreams are so amazing to me.

And I love how things in my life suddenly seem clear and connected, and little things I'd barely considered somehow become truly meaningful. My ritual and prayer came true, I contemplated things that needed changing, which is exactly what the universe was trying to teach me with all the dragonfly images, and even my dream was telling me to move on.

And now, I am.

I love the universe. I love magic. I love how everything is connected in life.

I am happy.

~Meg