I am slowly going crazy. Or quickly. I can't tell, anymore! Hee. Okay, so here's what's going on. Ashley got accepted into EATM. Yay for Ashley!!! Now... my turn! Heh. Right? Right?? Oh man, I can't TELL you how MUCH I want that email to arrive in my inbox already!!! Oh yeah - it's an email. Here I was getting all freaked out every time I checked my mailbox, and feeling sad when there was no letter, and the notifications are being sent out by email. Huh. Go figure.

Anyway, I talked to both Ashley and Ricky online tonight. We're all a little crazed. Ashley's in shock, and Ricky and I are in waiting. Nervous, insane waiting! All three of us said our stomachs were in knots today. Haha. We're all insane. No one has ever wanted to go to a college more than prospective EATM students, I'm convinced.

Ashley is being very encouraging, which I appreciate more than she knows. Encouragement is always a good thing! I welcome all positive thoughts, vibes, and energy. Everyone keep your fingers crossed! Cross them until you can cross them no more and then keep crossing!! If they fall off, I will pay for your prosthetic hands once I'm accepted into the program, as a thank you for your valiant efforts. Promise.

Seriously, the suspense? No fun at all. The speculating? Driving me batty. Ashley got an email addressed to her and one other girl, and both email addresses were at the top of the page. Naturally, Ashley has already emailed this other person. So now I'm trying to figure out what on earth is going on. Are the emails being sent out to two people at a time? Is this girl #4, or #6? Or what? Also, the counselor in charge of all these emails, letters, and notifications asked Ashley for her address so that he could send her an acceptance packet. Ashley and I were talking about that, and she said she thought he had her address already. Well, I actually sent him an email a few days ago, giving him my friend's address down in L.A. (where we'll be staying), so this is what I told Ashley on instant messenger:

oh, i just thought of something strange! I just emailed him my new address, so if he HAS it, he might not email me first... or maybe he will to find out if i can go. or maybe he'd assume i can go since i just emailed him..... aaaand this is how i make myself crazy, haha

Do you see? Do you see how the speculation is NON-STOP???

Something else funny is that Ashley gave me the other girl's email address. I went ahead and emailed it to myself, because that's often how I send quick notes to myself. I put "accepted eatm student" as the subject line. I'm sure you can see where this is going. Moments later, the email arrives in my inbox, and this is what I see: accepted eatm student

And this is what I think: OH MY GOD!

And then this is what I think: Yeah, that's from me. Okay, then.

I am exhausted from thinking about all of this. I just want that letter to come. More than I've ever wanted anything in a long, long time. Pleasepleasepleasepleasepleasepleaseplease! With cherries on top.

I'll keep you posted!