Since I'm having a hard time saying anything else at the moment, I might as well say this: I am having one hell of a bout of Writer's Block. Nothing sounds right to me. If I write something, it all comes out sounding stupid to me, or just, not quite right. Or I second guess how much I want to share, how I want to sound, what tone I want to convey. All of that stuff happens inside my head, of course, because I just haven't felt comfortable sitting down and writing.

The crazy part is, I have been writing some stuff. I've written over at my marathon journal a bit, which is cool. But I want to write here, about everyday stuff and thoughts. About t.v. shows, movies, or hello? -- Orientation and horseback riding, two things I've been meaning to write entries about for a long time.

I think what happens is that I either take myself too seriously, or the act of writing too seriously, and unintentionally put pressure on myself to write something "really cool." I think too much about it before actually doing it. Or, the experience I had was so cool that I want my writing to be equally as cool. I feel like a giant nerd writing this out, really, because seriously, this is an online journal. It's not like I'm writing the Great American Novel or anything. The best writers I've seen online are the ones who do not take themselves or their websites very seriously. They write because it's enjoyable and then go on about their lives.

I suppose that's part of my hang-up. I'm in sort of a funk, thinking, well I don't have a job, and I'm not in school, so what the hell could I possibly write about that would interest anyone? Mostly what I have been doing is thinking a lot about websites and walking, so I've written at my walking website. Heh. But I want to write other stuff, too. Interesting journal entries here, as well as maybe even some fiction, or some writing for a new animal related website I've been wanting to make for a while.

All I know is that writing is not as easy a task for me lately as it used to be, and I'm hoping it will pass soon. In fact, I'm sure it will. Once more things are going on, it'll be easier to have stories to tell. When I feel more interesting, maybe my writing will feel more interesting, too.

I will make an effort to write about those things long overdue, such as Orientation, etc. Otherwise, school will start, and I'll still be saying, "I have to write about that!"

The other thing I am realizing is that I just need to write. The longer I put it off, the harder it gets. I guess that's true with lots of things in life. So... No more procrastination! Not with homework, chores, or my writing here at Seafoam.

I think I'll wrap this entry up for now. But I'll be back. Soon, this time! Seriously. All right.