Yeah, I know I already knew this, but I failed that test. Failed with a capital FUCK! I got 19 points out of 49. Do you know how much that sucks? For you stats people out there, the mean was 37.5, with a standard deviation of 11. That means I'm BELOW one standard deviation of the mean. The mean is a C. That's below failing, if there is such a thing. I am SO SCREWED.

Or. Maybe not. I need a C to pass this class. Let me do some math...

...I'm back. I know, that was such a long time to wait for you, huh? Heh.

For my quizzes, which are 25% of my grade, I'm failing (52%). And for my exams, which are 75% of my grade, I'm also failing (61.5%). Right now, I have a 55% in the class. If I got a 100% on the final and a 100% on my next quiz, I'd have 71% in the class. Which is a C. That's the lowest grade I need to pass this class. And it requires PERFECT SCORES! Which I have gotten once on the quizzes for this class, and haven't gotten on any exams at all since high school.

I'm looking at summer school here! I feel so unspeakably lame right now. Not because of summer school itself. Just because of the fact that I'm going to be celebrating graduation in a few weeks, and I don't even know if it'll feel real. If I fail this class, I'll still have to repeat it. Nothing will be over.

"Meg, how does it feel to be done with school??"

"I don't know, ask me in three months!"

I'd have to go through all this material AGAIN, with a different professor, and who knows if that professor will be better or worse. People are telling me, "You won't fail!" But even a D is considered failing, because I can't get anything lower than a C for my core classes, of which Behavioral Neuroscience is the very last one I need! What am I going to do?

I'm gonna study like a mofo, for one. And pray. And hope for the best. I have no idea if I can pull this off. But I can try.